How To See A Rainbow

Read this, got to the end and my head nearly fell off from agreeing.

My favorite part: "...fall down, get up and repeat till the end?"

I don't see it as a question but as a statement. Because that's what it is. My problem is laying there like a useless slug wondering why in the world I would be stupid enough to try to get back up again. So easy to lay down, face in the dirt, watching the bugs do the busy work as they leave me behind to go to the mysterious places the busy body gets to go.

I have to sometimes talk myself back up because it's part of the fight. The fight of living and breathing and enjoying! How am I ever going to enjoy the journey if I see the path from the same perspective, face down in the dirt? I won't see the lovely flowers bloom, or the trees turn into golden colors or the the sun set and rise. I can find where the busy bodies are going, maybe off the path, maybe straight on. It's just all part of the fun.

I forget that sometimes. Now maybe I'll remember it quicker.

Or see a rainbow

Alternatives to soda

I stopped drinking diet soda years ago.

For four years we didn't have a washer/dryer. Every Sunday we would take all our laundry and go to my in-laws house to do it. That made for some loong days. Even worse if we missed a week.

Mom and dad always has soda in the fridge. I'd drink a couple of diet soda's there because you know, it's better for me. HA! I never bought any for home. I don't drink enough of it and we didn't have the space. The next day or sometimes even that night, my arm would start to ache. I thought maybe it was because I was lifting those clothes. There were a few times when we visited on holidays when I wasn't doing laundry but my arm would start to ache anyway. I had to think about it for a bit and finally put it together. Their house was the only place I ever drank diet soda.

I stopped drinking the diet and my arm ache didn't reappear.

I can't drink full on soda regularly because of insulin resistance, which my mom is convinced is now diabetes... NOT! I don't think I'd be getting along too well if it was full blown now. I totally avoid artificial sweetner because I tried the new stuff, got a rash on my arm, tried the old stuff, ended up with aches and decided it just was easier to avoid than to decide what caused the new symptom.

I also don't drink caffeine right now because of high blood pressure.

What the freak is left? Right?

I am exploring herbal teas and some decaffeinated teas. Lemonade isn't too bad when I need a little zing.  I still miss the fizz of the carbonation. I bought some club soda and mixed it with orange juice at the beginning. Lovely, lovely fizz that makes my brain think I'm drinking something naughty. Sometimes I'll just drink it straight. I haven't tried it with an herbal tea yet. It's a thought I just had so I might give it a go sometime.

Music Pacing

 Did one of the cardio machines. Drip, drip, drippity drip. I did sweat! I wonder if it's the amount of people, machines and room temp. I seem to get a lot more sweaty here than the old place I went.

My list of music turned out pretty good. I think I need to get rid of maybe one song, probably Mortal Kombat, It Has Begun, to tighten up the time. I skipped Fight Music For the Fight because I couldn't keep the pace anymore. The list kept me hopping and signaled cool down time like I wanted  when it got to Our Truth. 

I use the headphones not only for the beat time but also to keep the noise of other peoples pace down. If I zone out too much, I find myself falling in with the pace of the machines around me. Not great if the person next to me is in way better shape than myself and running a three minute mile. I'll kill myself! And not finish the workout. God bless the i-pod shuffle. 

Here's my first list, I plan on making some alternative lists for when I get sick of the same old, same old:

Disturbia 3:59 Rihanna

Whine Up (English Version) 3:26 Kat DeLuna

Monsters 4:04 Matchbook Romance

It Has Begun 2:52 Psykosonik

Dragula [Hot Rod Herman Remix] 4:37 Rob Zombie

Intergalactic 3:30 Beastie Boys

Fight Music for the Fight 2:33 Bromheads Jacket

Our Truth 4:03 Lacuna Coil

Don't Upset the Rhythm (Go Baby Go) 3:43 Noisettes


I really loved Go Baby Go as the last song. I might always keep that as my last song. I wanted to stop so badly those last couple of minutes. Having someone in my ears say Go Baby, Go! kept me going through the whole thirty minutes.

Ten days later

I exercised about three times this week at the 'Y.'

My weight is playing around with the same number. If I want to get it past that number I will have to make a better commitment to the exercising. I let myself get distracted and talk myself out of it. I am the excuse queen. The timing isn't right. I'll do it after I drop the kids off to school. Oh, I have other things I have to get done. I'll do it after I pick them up. Oh, they have homework, I'll do it after dinner. Oh, now I'm tired from making dinner and doing dishes, I'll do it at eight tonight. Wow, it's kind of late, they're going to close soon, I'll do it tomorrow morning. I'll get up earlier.... blah, blah, blah. 

I just have to do it. Period. 

Update!

All righty then.

Lost seven pounds so far. Bad day yesterday. Went out to eat. Ate onion rings and full on Sprite with a prime rib sandwich. Wanted to barf before bed. Ugh. It was too much for me. We went for a twenty minute walk after, I think that helped some.

Today for breakfast I ate oatmeal with walnuts, cinnamon and one spoon of sugar with vanilla. Super good! Feeling much better.

Joined the "Y" today. See how that works out.

Big eating challenge coming up this weekend. An open house party for a 90 year old. Sis and mom are coming down. I'm really going to have to concentrate on what or what I'm not eating because we can get to talking and not pay attention to what's going in our mouths. All three of us are guilty of it.