Somethings Working

I had to step on the scale numerous times because I thought something might of been wrong with it. Problem is I don't know I lost three pounds in the last four days because of hormone fluctuations or if it happened from watching carb intake and eating more natural foods during that time. I'm hoping it's more of the later than the former because it means despite the hormonal I can still lose.

I'll give what I'm doing a month to see if it works more.

Pizza, Veggies and exercise buddies

Exercised twice this week. Yeah me!

Walking up and down the stairs then taking a turn on the exercise ball with crunches and push ups.

Walked a mile with husband.

We talked about how we could help each other in weight loss. He's about thirty pounds overweight. I told him that not eating out so much helps (which we are doing, eating out about once a week now) and I need an exercise buddy. Other than that, there's not much else he can do to help me. He's decided that he really wants to cut back on the soda which I'm pretty sure will mean he can loose 20 lbs right away, heh.

I will read the carbohydrates booklet my mom sent me. The food I've been eating is getting to be healthier fare but balance is extremely important to my diet. If I don't eat enough protein my body will grab onto any carbs I do eat, healthy or not. But if I don't eat enough good carbs, I have blood sugar problems. I'm not type two... yet. My goal is to get healthy habits to turn this motor around and avoid that.

I see some very positive things happening. The biggest improvement I've noticed is looking down the frozen isle. Pizza has been my life long friend. When I don't feel like cooking, let's get a pizza. If it's late and I can't think of what to make, let's get a frozen pizza.

Last week I thought I wanted to get one. I looked at all the brands and all the types and my first thought was "YUCK!" None of it looked good. I thought perhaps that meant I wasn't in the mood for pizza. The next week, same thing. I thought of dry crust, brown unappetizing toppings and heavy, lethargic feelings after eating. It lacked good color and I was totally turned off. I barely even see that isle anymore.

I am buying vegetables both frozen and fresh. I used to avoid it because they would always spoil and get thrown out. If I know that a vegetable has been in the fridge all week I'll try to make a point of using it as soon as possible. Sometimes I do forget stuff is in there, like the leaf lettuce I had to throw out yesterday.

I'm getting more comfortable with making them. I put them on the kids plates and they started eating them! Another milestone was when my oldest, who in the past declared himself unable to eat vegetables because the consistency grosses him out, said that he found he can eat them if they are mixed with other things. You could have knocked me over with a touch. Whoop!

To sum up: Hubby will be my exercise buddy.
Frozen pizza no longer on menu.
Vegetables are now a daily menu item.
Children are eating the vegetables!

Time Turns on a Moment

Yesterday was a holiday. I had a soda. I ate hamburgers, poke cake, cookies, orange salad and cookies. I said cookies twice on purpose, heh. When I got home I had a glass of water and went to bed satisfied. Not one iota of guilt passed through my mind because I know I won't be eating like that every day.

This morning my mom called. She's coming to town and would like to meet somewhere for "an ice cream," even if that means she has a salad and diet coke.  She struggles with weight issues also.

My relationship with my mom is complicated. I feel concern that the mental issues that lead to her gaining weight haven't been dealt with. Thinking back, I'm suspecting she might have deeper issues she's been hiding, such as abuse of laxatives or pain medication. I'm jealous because I know that lack of exercise demon still haunts me. She does exercise every day. I'm angry because I know some of my weight issues are from my rocky childhood. I'm happy because I know how hard it is to lose weight. It's always good to know that it's not impossible. I'm angry because I have that stupid PCOS which makes it that much harder to lose, 'specially when the store that carries the thing that was helping closes for a vacation just as I run out of the stuff! 

All this bubbles up in a flash when the thought of 'ice cream' comes up. Then I remind myself I'm an adult. I don't have to eat anything. I can drink tea. I have the freedom to choose.

Starting Again.

Twenty five minutes with Biggest Loser Video tape. I have done it in the past and really like the effect it has on my arms. I think the cool down and stretching is a little lacking though.

Closest I came to sugar yesterday was a granola bar. Yeah! No soda either. Getting back in the tea groove.

Other ways to treat

I had something to celebrate, last day of two weeks of a class for my oldest.

I really wanted to "celebrate" by buying a sweet treat. Instead, I bought myself two new inexpensive tank tops and I bought oldest something he wanted that was under three dollars. I had to make a conscious effort to do it. "How about we get an Icee!" just about popped out of my mouth.

I get the feeling this behavior has been a huge factor in being over weight.